tough  恩 我的名字取的真对。

TODAY ，MY FATHER ASKED ME THAT，ALL THE OTHERS ARE BUSY GETTING READY FOR THE EAXM，HOW DO U FEEL？YES ，HOW DO I FEEL？ I REALLY DONOT KNOW。

IN THIS SECULIAR WORLD，TO TAKE THE EXAM OR NOT TO ，TO LOVE OR NOT TO ，THEY R ALWAYS  DELLAMS TO ME 。

IN THIS DEEP NIGHT ，WHAT AM I DOING ？NO PASSION ，NO DESIGN WORK，NO ONE WITH ME ，NO PERSON IS THINKING ABOUT ME，NO TEMPERATUR。 YES， MY SISTER IS RIGHT。I AM NOT ，AND I AM REALLY NOT A PERSON WHO DONOT TAKE DAMN CARE ABOUT LOVE。 OH SHIT ，THIS DISGUTING FOUR LETTERS MAKES SICK， DRAW ME CRAZY，LEAD ME TO DEATH STEP BY STEP。I HATE THE ONE WHO HURTED ME ，AND I HATE THE ONE WHO CARES ABOUT ME ，BUT EXCEPT ALL THAT ，I HATE MYSELF。I HATE MYSELF FOR BEING FEARED OF LOVE，I HATE MYSELF FOR BEING STUPID ALL TIME ALONG，I HATE MYSELF FOR DARING NOT TO LOVE ，AND I HATE MYSELF FOR LOVING HIM，I HATE MYSELF FOR BEING MYSELF。 GOD ，SAVE ME BY KILLING ME ……